After surviving the most notorious sexual predator in sports history, former gymnast Haines tells her life story and takes us behind the scenes of a sport in which most athletes retire at a young age. Her childhood love of gymnastics led to a college scholarship and success on the national level. As a young teenager, though, Haines came under the treatment of Larry Nassar. How Nassar gained her trust, sabotaged her self-confidence, and exploited her identity as a gymnast is shared, as is Haines's inspirational recovery and courageous final courtroom statement to her abuser. Written with great personal dignity, this memoir stands as a new-generation counterpart to Joan Ryan's landmark exposé Little Girls in Pretty Boxes; a cautionary, ultimately hopeful story of deep betrayal and enduring personal strength. VERDICT Now retired after a successful gymnastics career, Haines reveals not only her experiences as an elite young athlete but also the devastating effects of the serial abuse that she suffered in plain sight.

Library Journal, Starred Review

What was it like to be “treated” by Larry Nassar, the now-infamous molester? Confusing. Like her supportive parents and coach, Haines, who trained at an elite Michigan gym and later competed for the University of Minnesota, trusted the USA Gymnastics and Michigan State University physician. Wrongly so. . . . In this remarkably mature memoir, the 23-year-old also addresses the problems that accrue when a single individual holds so much power, and she shares her appreciation for all that she learned from gymnastics: balance, coordination, a strong work ethic, perseverance, and courage.

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I just read the whole book in one sitting and it moved me to tears. As a fellow gymnast who has gone through the entire USA Gymnastics Program (level 3 through the Olympics and NCAA), there were numerous instances when Rachel describes life as a student-athlete that I could 100% relate to. Her attention to detail can almost make you, the reader, feel her pain, both physically and emotionally. This memoir is an emotional deep-dive into what can happen "behind-the-scenes" of gymnastics, and while every gymnast's career is completely unique to them, the overall culture of USA Gymnastics that we've seen up to this point HAS TO CHANGE in order for this to NEVER happen again. I stand with all of the survivors and hope they are all finding their paths toward healing. You are so incredibly strong.

Corrie Lothrop, 2008 U.S. Olympic team member and University of Utah gymnastics alumna

I couldn't put this down! The pain, disbelief, and darkness Rachel has gone through is something unforgettable. As a former gymnast, I can relate with her as she takes you through the lessons and hardships gymnastics can teach you. Being an athlete takes sacrifice and pain, but Rachel explains the culture of gymnastics perfectly in her book. She makes you laugh, cry, and reflect through ups and downs on her journey as you learn about her powerful reflection of the gymnastics world and the challenges that come with it.

Kytra Hunter, two-time alternate for the World Artistic Gymnastics Championships, 25-time All-American, and four-time individual NCAA national champion

I could not put this book down for a moment. As a fellow retired gymnast and teammate of Rachel's, this book hits home because of the honesty with which she tells her story. Rachel courageously confronts her experience with convicted sexual offender Larry Nassar and the abuse of power within the sport. At the same time, she acknowledges the lessons she learned and wrestles with her overall feelings towards gymnastics, something all former gymnasts must do. This is a must-read that will make you cry, laugh, and most importantly... think.

Bailey Abernathy, University of Minnesota Gymnastics alumna

The cover reads “abused” but when you read the contents you'll learn Rachel Haines is “unbreakable.” While others might fold in the face of career-altering injuries and continuous abuse, Haines never backed down. From the first word to the closing sentiments, you are invited to relive her most vulnerable moments and heal along with her. An empowering story from a warrior of an author, this is a must-read for young athletes and women everywhere.

Morgan Short, co-author, Splintered Souls: An Anthology of Poems